09.02.02 - 1:15 pm

the most uncomfortable, fake, pointless and meaningless conversation ever. i kept hoping something relevant would occur. my heart raced with anticipation of either this moment going away as suddenly as it came or it reaching some level of closure or.....interest. i hastily put on songs to keep my mind from drifting to thoughts closed off and hidden away for months. i feel stupid. i feel.....talked down to. i feel like i should be saying what i really want to rather than the superficial pudding im filling her with. i dont feel like connecting with her. i dont feel like talking to her ever since the conversation started but shes a 500 gallon reef tank...i cant stop wanting more. the things she says pound nails into my spine. not painful but an irritating thud that shakes my whole body.

Andi: what up looser

CluckYouAH: thats me

Andi: umm

CluckYouAH: hi

Andi: yeah Hi, so whats up in the h o o d?

CluckYouAH: trying to get my house organized, ive got more stuff than i know what to do with and.....its taking forever to get rid of it

Andi: so one might say you are a pack-rat

CluckYouAH: some may say such....but i collect memories

Andi: hurah!

CluckYouAH: do you like modest mouse?

Andi: no clue

is that someone/something/somewhere? never heard of the modest mouse

CluckYouAH: its a band

CluckYouAH: i dont know your tastes anymore, but....i suggest you give them a try

CluckYouAH: start with third planet

Andi: ah I see.

Andi: I might consider it.....

CluckYouAH: do not consider....do

CluckYouAH: what are you doing today?

Andi: I am currently waiting for a friend to come over and scoop me up so that we can make our way to P-town and have a little fun.....

CluckYouAH: whats in portland?

Andi: The Bite, music, people watching all that jazz

CluckYouAH: splendid

Andi: indeed

CluckYouAH: tell me an excited adventure of your weekend

Andi: no

CluckYouAH: ok

Andi: that is too long to tell i had a busy weekend

Andi: you?

CluckYouAH: mine was too long to tell too

Andi: oh yeah eh?

CluckYouAH: you better believe it

and then some other stuff was said but, there gets to a point when it gets so tediously unimportant to remember whats being said and how to respond to it that....

i wish sarah was here.