09.05.02 - 11:28 pm

she did it a week ago. she didnt tell me. her best friend is a meth addict and got mad at me for telling her she was. she told me she wasnt. i believed her. she is a liar. sarah lied to me. i thought it would come to this. this means that the end will be most likely coming sooner than expected. i didnt tell her, but, ive told myself. the next time it happens, i will tell her to leave. and to leave me alone.

and ill do it.

i wouldnt believe myself if i didnt already know i was going to do it. one more time. and its done. lets see how well she can hold up.