11.10.02 - 8:19 pm

i think sarah had sex with me because i was her boyfriend....not because thats how she would have preferred it.

i dont feel sexually attractive and thinking of sarah and i having sex is humiliating. im embarrassed and ashamed that she would have even considered such an act with me.

"i need to change if this is going to work......but i dont want to."

i slept on the couch. she stormed out without saying goodbye in the morning. seven months and she doesnt even say goodbye.

she said i love you and im sorry and i miss you to pacify me.

our relationship is a crumpled piece of paper.