04.09.03 - 8:27 pm

its just not working out. she has nothing to say to me. shes not excited. she could talk of the things she writes about in her journal. she could apologize to me. she could get excited about our year anniversary and tell me everything she wants to do, and what she cant wait for. she can talk about our baby. she can tell me she loves me.

instead she goes silent.

and its been like this for a months. degrading. losing its value. shes pulling away again. shes changing. im hurting. she wants to do drugs so she wont have to care.

i want to give up.