07.20.03 - 1:10 pm

my child was born three days ago. already three days ago.

instead of writing words here to express the sensual characteristics of the moments ive been experiencing for the last 72 hours, i wish i could utilize just one. just one sense and one only.

that of sound.

i would play here a song over and over, and just this one song would be all you needed to understand and to imagine and to feel all that ive felt and sorted through myself emotionally. the lyrics dont matter. in a sense the piano doesnt matter. its everything combined. its every word every drum every emotion that this song stirs for me.

if you want to know what its like to have a child. if you want to know what it feels like the first time he opens his eyes and looks into yours, struggling to keep them open even though the dim light of the room is still too bright for his eyes. if you want to know what happiness and worry feel like. if you want to know what every possible emotion feels like to be expressed as one.

listen to this song in the dark by yourself. listen to this song as your drive with the sunroof down and the stars raining in. listen to this song and wait.

clocks.