08.06.03 - 7:54 pm

it hurts to talk. i want to have to talk. or repeat myself. i have a sore throat.

i dont get enough sleep when im with sarah or ashton. and it gives me sore throats. ill sleep on the floor outside my room tonight.

i feel empty. weak. frail. i cant tell if i need to eat or just eat vegetables. am i malnurished?

i want to fall asleep. i want to sleep long and well. i dont want to be this angry anymore.

i dont want to see anyone. go away all of you. go away child. work. bills. responsibility. moving. terri. go away morals. ethics. integrity.

i wish having a child would suddenly go away when i woke up.