09.06.03 - 2:20 am

denial. denial deluxe. fuck it.

"i just like the taste."

no, you like the chemical reaction it gives you - intoxication. when someone likes the way orange juice tastes, they drink a glass or two of it. a day. they dont have six of them in a single sitting. sarah drinks to get drunk. shes an addict. shes been off meth since november 20th, 2002, as far as ive been told. without that numbing sensation consistantly dulling her emotions, shes been thirsting for another addiction. and since she has no one to tell her no, the door to degredation has been torn off and is a huge gaping hole for self destruction to wander in as it pleases. she smokes. she drinks. constantly. she denies it. she denies the reasons for doing it. her mother doesnt care. her cousin doesnt care. everyone knows that sarah is trying to come clean and stay clean and healthy, especially because she is a new mother. but apparently drinking nightly and smoking constantly is an appropriate way for a recovering addict to stay clean.

fucking idiots.