09.26.03 - 10:17 pm

so far away, but still lost somewhere with her.

im having fun. but im looking for things to bring back to you.

im too scared to let my life go in another direction without her. i panic. i dont want to be alone. i want her to be alone. i dont know how to want what i want. i dont know what i want anymore. i want to give up. give in to her. give in to what i feel. not what i already have experienced. i can only pretend for so much longer that i have what i want.