02.07.04 - 6:51 pm

nothing really has changed since yesterday. i still feel the same. im still having rhetorical battles with myself regarding how much i miss and hate her at the same time.

nothing much has changed since yesterday though.

except i was spit on yesterday. except that i decided again that i was done with her for a long time.

except today i missed her coming into my work full of smiles carrying ashton.

as always, i miss the memories of the past instead of moving on and focusing on a better future.