04.23.05 - 7:00 pm

Sarah: IM SO SICK OF YOU
Sarah: you are such a big wuss and you never want to spend any time with me
Sarah: i mean
Sarah: you do
Sarah: but at inapropriate times
Sarah: and it doesnt mean enough to you
Sarah: because you would rather spend the night at your fucking moms then drive to come see me at mine.
Sarah: HAVE A GOOD NIGHT
Sarah: and i will too
Sarah: while im doing some guy
Sarah: and thinking abougt you
Sarah: afrrhghghasdl'kjasdfjklfasd;jklfasd
Sarah: ass
Ronn Popeil: wtf?
Ronn Popeil: sarah
Ronn Popeil: youre so.....outrageous sometimes.
Ronn Popeil: you do all these things to make me want to spend time with you.
Ronn Popeil: how come when russell drives in the middle of the night just to spend the night with rachel its seen as wonderful
Sarah: yeah
Sarah: it would be if we actually got to spend time with eachother like they do
Sarah: do not compare them to us its completely different
Ronn Popeil: last night could have been wonderful
Ronn Popeil: but
Ronn Popeil: you
Sarah: but you ruined it
Sarah: by sleeping on the couch
Sarah: you could have planned to come tonight
Sarah: spend more time with me
Ronn Popeil: how did i ? by sticking up for myself?
Sarah: you could have
Sarah: but instead you come late
Sarah: yeahhhh
Sarah: sticking up for yourself
Sarah: when that is ALL I EVER DO
Sarah: against you
Sarah: honestly
Sarah: shut up
Sarah: you sound retarded
Ronn Popeil: no, i sound like someone who has been trying really hard to be a good person for you. and these last few days youve done nothing but treat me like shit.
Sarah: psh
Sarah: yeah
Ronn Popeil: the things you say...you dont even have any remorse.
Sarah: of course, your perfect
Ronn Popeil: you just think its ok
Ronn Popeil: to talk to me the way you do
Ronn Popeil: and then this morning...with the nice little break up
Sarah: oh, that's right because you know, you can always judge how i feel by what i say
Ronn Popeil: that was awesome
Ronn Popeil: SURE I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU!!!
Sarah: you liked that?
Sarah: fantastic
Sarah: then why
Sarah: do you get upset when i cant stay the night at your moms but you wont come to stay with me?
Sarah: why
Sarah: do you come over on nights you have lik 8 hours of sleeping time to spend with me?
Sarah: why why why????
Sarah: are you ever going to stop acting like we have a stupid little relationship and think about what is really going on??!!?!
Ronn Popeil: because i dont mind doing that with you. if i can only drive down to pleep next to you, then thats fine with me.
Ronn Popeil: we do have a stupid little relationship.
Ronn Popeil: you make it that way.
Sarah: ohhhh
Sarah: my bad
Ronn Popeil: how do we have a stupid little relationship?
Ronn Popeil: i thought it was going wonderfully
Ronn Popeil: i was having a great time being with you
Ronn Popeil: and then lately
Ronn Popeil: you just turned so bitter.
Sarah: you just said we do
Sarah: because i was getting annoyed
Ronn Popeil: at what?!
Ronn Popeil: why all of a sudden?
Sarah: that little spiff with your moms last weekend...our talk about that stupid abortion stuff... and what you say just is so FUCKED UP
Ronn Popeil: why at such weird random times?
Ronn Popeil: thats fine that you think what i think is fucked up in regards to abortion. but listen, i think what you have to say about keeping children is fucked up.
Ronn Popeil: ashton is nearly two, you havent even signed him up for health insurance.
Sarah: ok,
Sarah: well then
Sarah: even if i am pregnant
Ronn Popeil: ashton is nearly two....and you just recently stopped smoking weed every day.
Sarah: im not going through that with you again
Ronn Popeil: you have no concept of sacrifice for your child.
Ronn Popeil: youre bputting ashton through the life you want to have.
Ronn Popeil: and its not fair to him or me
Ronn Popeil: because i cant do anything to stop you
Ronn Popeil: and neither can he
Sarah: no
Sarah: im good
Sarah: ive been good
Ronn Popeil: and inspite of people telling you, sarah, dont smoke weed and breastfeed, you continue because you want to.
Sarah: dont say that shit
Sarah: I DIDNT!!!! YOU ASS HOLE
Sarah: you are so ungreatful
Sarah: i finally stop doing something
Sarah: and you fucking complain
Sarah: and complain
Sarah: abuot all the god damn has beens
Ronn Popeil: no, im glad you did
Sarah: your such a negative person
Sarah: your such an ass
Ronn Popeil: but how long did itt take me sarah?
Sarah: you are sooooo not good at making someone feel good about the efforts
Ronn Popeil: how long did it take anyone before you finally agreed to do it?
Sarah: it took ME
Ronn Popeil: when did the guilt finally set in that wow, i really should stop
Sarah: about a month of smoking pot before kristin moved in a RARELY did that jordan
Sarah: you KNOW THAT
Sarah: i only did it for like a month
Saritteri: then i realised it was stupid
Saritteri: and i stopped
Ronn Popeil: you still did it befor.
Sarah: because i wanted to
Sarah: not because of you
Ronn Popeil: well im glad you finally found it in yourself after AMONTH
Ronn Popeil: that it wasnt th best idea.
Sarah: not nearly as much, i'd say 5 times since ash was born and guess what?!?!!?" SO DID YOU
Sarah: YEAH.
Saritteri: see what i mean
Ronn Popeil: um...what?
Ronn Popeil: my smoking didnt go into his body.
Sarah: so?
Sarah: that's not why your angry at me for doing it or else you wouldn't care if your friends did it. that's only part of the reason. dont try and fool me
Ronn Popeil: no
Ronn Popeil: you have no idea.
Sarah: yes i do
Ronn Popeil: i called julia annoying and useless because she came over high the other day.
Sarah: your
Ronn Popeil: it hurt her feelings.
Sarah: heartless
Sarah: and cold
Sarah: and retarded
Ronn Popeil: because i couldnt justify caring so much about you and your drug use, and ignoring hers.
Sarah: your mean
Sarah: that was really a mean thing to say to her, she doesnt deserve that even if she is coming over high WHO CARES???
Sarah: is she in school?
Sarah: is she graduating?
Sarah: is she alive?
Sarah: a good friend?
Sarah: living?
Sarah: having fun?
Sarah: yeah
Sarah: i think so
Sarah: dont be like that
Sarah: dont be such an ass
Ronn Popeil: i dont like drugs sarah.
Sarah: just because people do things you dont agree with
Ronn Popeil: oh
Ronn Popeil: haha
Ronn Popeil: so like....abortion????????????
Sarah: that does NOT give you a right to be mean to someone about it or degrade them in any way
Ronn Popeil: OH
Ronn Popeil: SO HOW YOU TREAT ME IN REGARDS TO MY BELIEFS ON ABORTION!?!?!?!?!!?
Ronn Popeil: haha
Ronn Popeil: nice sarah.
Ronn Popeil: bye.
Sarah: i dont
Sarah: treat you that way because of your beliefs jordan
Sarah: nice try
Sarah: and you know, if i did..even, you know how it feels to feel that way and that would make you a hypocrit
Sarah: so dont even try
Sarah: honestly
Sarah: you think something is wrong
Sarah: but you can do it to someone else?
Sarah: your not a very nice person
Sarah: or considerate
Sarah: at all
Sarah: what's your deal??
Ronn Popeil: what are you even talking about sarah?!
Sarah: you dont deserve me to talk to you like that
Sarah: and neither does julia
Sarah: and neither do i
Sarah: despite of what anyyyyoneee does
Sarah: maybe it was bad carma
Sarah: you made her feel the way i made you feel and how you made me feel
Sarah: your not nice
Sarah: im done
Ronn Popeil: done?
Sarah: DONE
Ronn Popeil: ?
Sarah: and how did she react when you said that to her?
Sarah: did she stop talking to you?
Ronn Popeil: no.
Sarah: "PUNISH" you
Sarah: tell you that she is sleeping on the couch
Sarah: or go to her moms to fix her car
Ronn Popeil: she just doesnt talk to me in general lately.
Sarah: is that what she did??
Ronn Popeil: sarah
Sarah: fantastic
Sarah: have a good night.
Ronn Popeil: she also didnt say she was breaking up with me.
Sarah: haha
Sarah: good
Sarah: goooood
Sarah: because if i remember correctly i was the one being mean to yoyu
Sarah: so it would make more sense if you said that to me.
Ronn Popeil: i really dont think for most of this conversation weve been talking about the same thing.
Sarah: ....
Sarah: you have no perspective.
Sarah: that's all we need to cover
Ronn Popeil: like, you keep trying to compare things that arent even applicable.
Ronn Popeil: and im trying to make you realize how im feeling
Sarah: yeah.
Sarah: ok
Sarah: bye
Ronn Popeil: and then you keep bringing up things not even related but in such a way that it attacks me.
Sarah: ummm
Sarah: yeah
Sarah: you you you
Sarah: just shush
Sarah: im leaving
Ronn Popeil: well, right now it is about me.
Sarah: k
Sarah: poor you
Sarah: if i remember correctly...
Sarah: breathes there a man with a soul so dead...
Sarah: something like that
Sarah: hopefully you reach that point
Ronn Popeil: um?
Ronn Popeil: eh?
Sarah: maybe you'll get some pity then.
Ronn Popeil: i dont need pity at all sarah
Sarah: you want it though
Ronn Popeil: i would like you to acknowlegde that you hurt my feelings. and that its important for me to know that you care that im hurt by you.
Ronn Popeil: its important that i know that you care about me.
Sarah: hahaha
Sarah: ok
Sarah: you first
Ronn Popeil: and so far, youve done absolutelt nothing in the last 24 hours to show me that you care about how im feeling.
Ronn Popeil: well i didnt know i hurt you.
Sarah: you did about 29 months ago
Sarah: for 2 years
Ronn Popeil: i didnt know we were focusing on that. i thought we had started over.
Ronn Popeil: it seemed like we had.
Sarah: oh, ok that makes it easy
Sarah: lets start over
Sarah: better now?
Sarah: ande i think i did do soemthing in the last 24 hours by callign you and leaving you that message on your phone
Ronn Popeil: well, not right nowwwww. but when we got back together i thought i made it clear how i felt about how i had acted. i thought you uunderstood how regretful i was for my actions.
Saritteri: but of course you dont remember that
Ronn Popeil: no i do.
Sarah: because you only focus on the bad things
Sarah: i do soemthing nice and you never see it
Sarah: never pay attention
Ronn Popeil: but you know, if you really meant your apology on my phone call, this atttitude you have now wouldnt be here.
Sarah: and its always like that
Ronn Popeil: no i very much did
Sarah: its like you want me to beg at your knees for hours
Sarah: ITS HERE
Ronn Popeil: but instead of you wanting to talk abot how sorry you were, or why you were even sorry or how i was feeling, you instead wanted to attack me.
Sarah: BECAUSE OF YOU
Ronn Popeil: i dont need begging
Sarah: YOU do not aknowlege what i do
Ronn Popeil: i need you to SHOW that you care
Ronn Popeil: and not just muble it.
Sarah: i DO
Sarah: so stop it
Sarah: show me that you care
Sarah: and go away
Sarah: pooperface
Sarah: you arent making any sense.
Sarah: your so selfish and when someone gives you a taste of your own medicine you cant handle it. AT ALL.
Ronn Popeil: why would you want to give me a taste of my own medicine though? i dont understand that.
Sarah: i dont
Ronn Popeil: i mean, i would have understood if it was back in december
Sarah: its not intentional.
Sarah: no
Ronn Popeil: but lately, you cant do that. you cant "give me a taste of my own medicine" when things are good for things i did 6 months prior
Sarah: o my bad
Sarah: i was not intentional
Sarah: and maybe it was for what you said to julia i dont know
Sarah: jsut think about it
Ronn Popeil: i can express my feelings to julia. i can be honest with her. and i was comfortable telling her how i felt about her weed use.
Sarah: yeah. fantastic. but your an idiot.
Sarah: you know you've done a lot and that girls forgiven you for
Sarah: she is in college jordan she has no responsibilities besides school its normal. WHO CARES????
Sarah: jesus.
Ronn Popeil: i do.
Ronn Popeil: because i dont want her to end up like you or brian or kristin.
Sarah: your a friggen natzi
Sarah: well she's fine!
Ronn Popeil: youre not
Ronn Popeil: look at you
Sarah: she's doing twelve thousand times better than krsitin and me
Sarah: im fine
Sarah: your the only person who pisses me off
Ronn Popeil: youre a fucking bitch because youve been addicted for so long.
Sarah: because your exactly like that
Sarah: haha
Sarah: nooooo
Sarah: im not
Sarah: that's not why im like this jordan i can ASSURE YOU
Sarah: or else i'd be like that to someone else
Ronn Popeil: youre CONSTANTLY saying...well, i told you this was going to happen when i quit...and you didnt believe me...
Sarah: excuse
Ronn Popeil: WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU LIE TO ME AND MAKE AN EXCUSE
Ronn Popeil: WHY WOULDNT YOU JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WERE REALLY THINKING
Ronn Popeil: isnt that what you do in a "silly little relationship"?
Ronn Popeil: you try to act like youre so mature
Sarah: no
Ronn Popeil: and youve got your head on straight
Sarah: no i dont
Ronn Popeil: but sarah, youre constantly showing me examples of how you make just as many mistakes as i do.
Sarah: that is not true why would you say that?? just becuase im arguing with you?
Sarah: i know i do!!
Sarah: so?
Sarah: i never said i was perfect why do you think i did?
Ronn Popeil: because when you accuse me of thinking im in a stupid little relationship
Ronn Popeil: when you act so much better than me
Ronn Popeil: when you call me an idiot
Ronn Popeil: when you tell me that youre stuck with me
Ronn Popeil: when you remind me how stupid i am
Ronn Popeil: or how irritating
Ronn Popeil: thats how you tell me that you think youre better than me.
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