09.04.05 - 12:54 am

i am just not surprised. its the same. always the same. its hard not to think you know how something will turn out when youve seen it so many goddamn times.

"erin, your boyfriend doesnt even know where you are...so dont give me that."

lies. i dont even know how many countless lies sarah told me. or vice versa. girls and boys just do so many silly things inspite of their jealous untrusting significant others. erin told her boyfriend she was going to bed. the other girl decided to have a discussion about trust with her boyfriend. i wish i had someone comforting me on the other end of a cellphone telling me not to worry, and assuring me how much they care about me inspite of where they are and what they are doing and who they are with. sadly enough, i miss those dramatic annoying phone conversations. just a little bit though.

teenage mothers.

they always start out with their trashy or nontrashy boyfriends. but always end up single. its very difficult for unmarried young people to stay together and have a child. especially when the boy didnt want the child. especially when the boy feels so powerless. especially when both the boy and girl are far too young to really understand what lies ahead. i dont hate you for having a child, i just wish youd rather raise him with me than without.

being alone.

music makes being alone in your room feel so good. a good song is all the company you need as you sit, isolating yourself from your friends above. it happens all to frequently when youre 72 miles away from family and people youd like to be spending time with.

ha. tatiana. remember when you met her in phoenix...? remember when you stole her phantom menace vhs....and now six years later, still have it.

tonight was not the climactic event i had hoped. it was instead really lame. teeming with disinterest.

i should have just stayed at home and folded my laundry.