09.19.05 - 3:00 am

maybe it really was me who pushed her away. me specifically. maybe she really is only ignoring me and me alone.

but stumbling across new information today seems to only strengthen my hatred of that fucking plant. what it does to people. who it changes them into. the weak ones.

i wish you were back. i wish you werent so gone. i wish i knew that i didnt know anything about you or what youre doing. i wish i was wrong.

and i wish you would tell me.