06.25.06 - 12:48 pm

backstory: sarah asks me to watch ashton wednesday thursday instead of tuesday friday for an unknown reason. i agreed, but a shift thursday made it impossible, so she changed it to tuesday wednesday instead. she mentioned that i would be doing this instead of watching him on friday. but ultimately, i took him tuesday at one and watched him until thursday at noon.
then i get a call from sarah asking when i was going to pick up ashton on friday...uhh, i was pretty sure we established that i wasnt watching him on friday because of the consecutive days we had previously arranged instead. as per usual i agree to watch him under the condition that after sarah gets off work she picks him up. she agrees, she says she gets off work around ten. i show up friday to pick up ashton outside her work, and ask her again for clarification when she is getting off work.
"i dont know, ten maybe? eleven? why?" she says.
"because i need to know when youll be available to pick ashton back up..."
"no, youre watching him till saturday i thought. i made plans tonight."

this is where it turns ugly. im angry because i knew sarah would do something like this. shes angry because she knows shes once again made a mistake like this. the same sort of mistake her and i had discussed just a day before, while she was sobbing about "something being wrong with her".

she had made plans to go to eugene and drink. i had made plans to go to portland to see my father for his birthday. my friend sarah before she leaves for chicago forever. and brian while hes in town from pendleton.

knowing she would never say, "oh thats right, i did make a mistake in misunderstanding our plans. ill take ashton tonight after work, its fine." what a joke, she would never break her plans especially when shes at fault and should. i break my plans for her. always.

so i decide then that she doesnt need the $50 i had planned on giving her this friday and the $60 next week. due to some vehicular troubles from what im told, her boyfriend at the time gave her $300 as a gift. when they broke up, he demanded it back in exchange for the stuff of hers he had. so i dont give her the money friday. saturday afternoon, when i dropped off ashton with her, she asked that i deposit the money into her account soon. i tell her i dont really want to pay her money because she owes her ex boyfriend money. and so begins this text message conversation: (everything is written as typed, hence the autotext confusion of paying vs saying, text missing, etc....)

sarah: well its not about that anymore. im not saying him. but if you dont want me to file for for child support, dont you think its only reasonable you give me...text missing...

jordan: it is about that still...dont lie. and dont threaten me with child support...from the child services attorney ive already talked to it might not go in your favor.

sarah: its true. i told david i wouldnt. im not lying. you think you know so much about me jordan. and you dont threaten me. i dont think you know.

jordan: i will happily give you money for ashton necessary things. but demanding money from me because of problems youve caused for yourself is not my problem. nor is it what child support is for.

jordan: you told david you wouldnt what? wouldnt pay him back....?

sarah: i know. the problems are probably caused cause i dont get any. i dont ask for it unless i need it. im not demanding it. its fine.

jordan: you driving uninsured and without a drivers license is not because of no child support. ashton doesnt cost that much...and you cant even get him on free health care without me harping on you...

sarah: right...

sarah: uninsured and no license?

sarah: you are mean. you are just being spiteful about something. probably last night. i dont know. either way just quit.

jordan: listen, im moving. im real short on money too. im driving back and forth just like you. im watching ashton just like you. i just enrolled him in gymnastics. i dont understand why you think youre entitled to money from me when i am just as active in this as you.

sarah: i guess. but i think its probably just about time spent. i probably put more money into him. of course you do. your his dad. child support isnt suppos.....text missing.

and that was that, i think. shes in a mess because she ruined her car. totalled it driving off the road one night after work. rumor has it she was driving uninsured and that her license was suspended. apparently she had been telling her mom she was insured for months...when she really wasnt. and i think i was told an officer was present at the accident and she was ticketed for the two failures, which only furthered her financial burdens. but then her ? to my statement implies she either has no idea what im talking about and im completely wrong, or shes feigning ignornace in order to not reveal what the true sources of her financial problems are. the $300 her boyfriend loaned her was for something that had to do with her car....

its difficult not knowing all the facts when ive been piecing them together from so many sources, and then not being able to trust her at all. who do i believe? how do i know whats really going on over there?