01.09.09 - 5:20 pm

its time i become more and more like arthur frobisher.

arthur frobisher is arrogant. he can walk up to his enemies and stand next to them without the least bit of discomfort. thats because arthur frobisher doesnt give a shit about anyone. he can talk with patty hewes or get a cup of coffee next to ellen parsons, and almost relishes in the tension that exists even if theyre just forcing smiles at each other.

sarah thornton is patty hewes. shes not out to get my money. the child support is all relative, an added bonus. her sole purpose is to destroy me. to tarnish me as a valueless person. as a father. she wants to make ashton embarassed or ashamed to be with me, just as patty wanted arthurs children to think of him.

when i see her, i need to say hello. i need to invade her personal space, instead of shying away from any and all contact with her. i need to start acting like i could give a shit about her and what shes doing. i need to feel comfortable calling her, especially calling her to speak to ashton.

because she is not patty hewes. and i have nothing to fear from her.