07.01.09 - 8:51 am

i quietly seethe with anger. frustration at myself and the simple mistakes that turn into looming problems. angry over people that let me down. resentful over someone elses choices which inflict such lasting damage.

but its all a culmination of tiny mistakes. small additions of procrastination. incremental pieces i stack against myself. and a total lack of understanding in knowing what i am capable of.

i need to push myself. desperately now more than ever.