08.30.02 - 11:03 pm

theres too much marijuana in my girlfriends body. and too much desire for it in her mind. i wish it wasnt like this every day. until recently it didnt bother me, until i realized how excessively she enjoys it. it bothers me. it creates a feeling of sadness in me that would only sound trite and silly to explain to her and maybe even a bit......possessive. im wondering how long i will be able to tolerate her moderate drinking.

it would be nice if newberg wasnt full of alcoholic, methamphetamine using, weed smoking bored teenagers with promiscuous sexual activity. maybe if i didnt like her as much it would be easier.