12.06.02 - 12:47 am

i dont really know whos email address this is, but im hoping its a (deleted for privacy) thornton.

im assuming youre back in newberg now. and i hope you had a wonderful trip to arizona. but now youre back in town and things need to happen.

your daughter has been a nice kaleidoscope of signals since shes been gone. going from being completely rude and mean to nice and affectionate to completely silent. none of which leaves me feeling anything less than confused. she says she loves me she says she doesnt believe in love she stops talking to me stops contacting me and blocks me from her buddy list.

so because of her apparent lack of interest in me, theres nothing else i can do. im out.

but once again, im left here powerless, and forced to go through this.

im sure sarah appeared to have made it successfully for a few weeks in arizona without drugs, cigarrettes or anything of the sort. but now shes back in town, back where she is comfortable doing things without anyone ever knowing.

if she is going (deleted for privacy), and is going to make me (deleted for privacy) then she will HAVE to follow some guidlines, and since i cant enforce them, youre going to have to step up, do whats right for everyone involved, and do your best as a parent to get her to do some things.

i honestly do not care what she has to say about her condition or her mental state. i do not care that she says shell be fine. i do not care that she says she will be ok from now on.

if she(deleted for privacy) this does not include drugs.

either get sarah into a rehab center (deleted for privacy) addicts or have her (deleted for privacy)

i will not sit back for the remainder (deleted for privacy). do you understand that? does that make sense? does that sound unreasonable?

i dont trust sarah. as a mother youre inclined to, but do not. she is an addict. and there are a million ways to pretend youre not. by now you should know that. my greatest fear, if it hasnt happened already, is that she will go out, do drugs one night, and easily get away with not telling anyone or having anyone know. she will tell her self that she will do it just this once and no one will know, itll be ok, one little time wont hurt (deleted for privacy)....etc etc. i dont expect her to be able to keep her urges under control, cigarrettes too. i almost guarantee she will smoke. at the very least.

i have also contracted an STD. its called mollusca. look into it, because if i have it sarah has it. its got a 2 to 7 week incubation period before the symptoms show. i did some figuring out today and estimate i was infected sometime between the last week of october and the first week of november. i suggest sarah gets an STD test as well. i had one, and i came up clean for everything, but i still have to wait at least 6 months to know for sure if i have herpes, warts or....something else, i cant remember. but these take time for symptoms to appear and cant be tested for.

id also appreciate you calling me sometime before wednesday of next week. if you dont get this email before then, ill call you. i lost your cell phone number, regretably or id be calling you right now.

thank you for reading this, and at the very least considering what i have to say and thinking about what i have said. i dont think im being unreasonable, just safe, respectful and concerned.

thank you again

sincerely

jordan