12.25.02 - 2:31 pm

even silence can lead to rumors, whispers and conversations about, but not including you.

"this is how its going to be from now on, youve made it very clear to me that im unnecessary in your life, so im done chasing you. ill go to your meetings, ill be there to talk about things we need to talk about, but after that i leave. we dont talk about anything other than the most important issues we're facing...."

i wish that was something i could say to her. its time i get better.

this isnt going to work. i dont think i can do this. seperating my feelings from the politics. its too hard. and this bothers me.