06.23.03 - 8:50 pm

hey look at him, dont ever live that way

when you feel pain worth living

youve got to stand up and take a look around

to the sky

when your deepest thoughts are broken

keep on dreaming

but when you stop dreaming its time to die

they all look at me and say

hey look at him

where he is these days...

when life is hard youll have to change

i might have my baby tonight.

something was wrong today. jordan knew it. i knew it. though i couldnt pin point what it was. all of the sudden i thought something was bothering me. i thought i knew what it was. but i discovered i didnt. after thinking thoughts racing through my mind over and over as to what it might be i couldnt figure it out. i think something is missing. something isnt right. and i want to know what it is so that it can be fixed. i dont know what to do. and i dont know what im going to do if i have this child tonight. im not ready. but were not on my schedule. were on baby's schedule. contractions wont stop coming.

babies...