07.31.03 - 4:45 pm

i dont want to drive. after this, no more. me and my car are taking it easy for a while, goddamnit. i may look happy. but im not. im tired. im tired of this. im still angry. im still frustrated. my patience is tested every day. my desire to yell and shout and say no are all....hushed to a silent smile. as much as i dont want this, reversing it or changing it would just make it worse. im stuck. for good. and im not happy about this.