12.14.03 - 10:18 pm

it started with my discovery of the words: "FREE SADDAM" as the away message of my friend brian. curious, i checked yahoo.com and there. in a seperate section away from the regular headlines i usually read, a section seperated for monumental events, was what i had hoped i would find. the excitement was just billowing out of me. i could not believe it. i was absolutely fascinated as my eyes rolled over the words i had been aching to hear.

SADDAM HUSSEIN CAPTURED ALIVE.

i was shocked. i was estatic. never had i thought in the eight months of fighting and searching fervishly would i have imagined a result such as this. i was thoroughly disappointed in the inability to capture osama bin laden. this too, was gearing up to be another disappointing historical event in my lifetime.

the media will humiliate his capture and belittle it. describing how he was found in a hole. cornered like a rat. didnt put up a fight. disoriented. haggard. weary. in the shadows of a palace he used to thrive in.

well, he had nearly the entire world trying to kill or capture him. he only had so many places to hide. for eight months he was able to eat, sleep and change clothes. while the rest of his country was being combed through, and bombed, and destroyed. he had hundres of thousands of people armed with fully automatic rifles searching his entire country thoroughly. they were trying to kill him. and he still had the composure to clothe himself.

i doubt he did anything differently than our own president would do. im sure, with the onslaught of invasion by a superior enemy nation, with bush's daughters murdered, his cabinet slowly being assassinated or arrested, he too would have only to keep moving. keep running. keep hiding. keep surviving. for eight months. his trust would have to be shuffled between quick decisions. careful selection of who to trust to harbor or lie for you would no longer be an option. especially since a large portion of his own country hates him. how long would he be able to hold out? to navigate through his civilians and landscape.

i think saddam did pretty damn well for himself considering what he had going against him. i think, with his thick burly beard, his tired graveyard eyes, that he had just bided his time for the last few weeks. realized his contacts were not so trustworthy. that his noose was tightening. i think he was ready to be captured. i think he had grown tired of always running, and running out of people to trust.

as exciting as it is to finally have him captured, and to see the results of which in the upcoming months, i almost miss him on the run. i miss the perpetual hunt and the disappointment that came with his foiling our attempts at capture or assassination.

and i dont have anything to say to close this out.