07.10.04 - 7:36 am

always.

seriously.

always something wrong. comfort and happiness is a temporary false sense of stability. it only lasts a short while. and more than half of its duration is due to her merely pretending.

i feel like im wasting time.

missing oppertunities.

but what about when youre happy, and you think, being miserable until youre happy is worth it?

i dont know anymore. is it? how do i put value on my long stretches of unpleasantness compared to the short moments of bliss? when will i learn that enough is enough. that when im not happy i should do something about it.

yeah well, learn next time when you have a kid to complicate things. maybe then youll know.

right.