11.13.04 - 8:34 am

i cant believe it. she calls at 3 am to tell me how drunk she was. i asked her "are you going to sober up in 3 hours?"
"yes" she said.
i pressed the snooze button until 6:20 am. i showered. i dressed. i put my coughing son back to sleep when necessary. at 6:45 not expecting sarah to show up in time for my morning coffee and mcdonalds, i had a bowl of frosted miniwheats.
i figured id be a few minutes late, so i called my work, letting stacy know sarah was on her way and then id be there.
time continued to pass.
i sent text messages by the thousands. i called her eugene house. abner wearily said, "i dont think she came home last night man."
i went online trying to find anyone awake on a saturday morning to have them call sarahs cell phone and try to wake her up or get a hold of her.
i had my mom call.
and i continued to text message.
stacy called me and told me she was the only one on the floor. "this isnt good" she emphasized.
i know. im late. im getting a point. stacy has no one on the floor to help open. i single handedly caused a very big mess at work.
sarah still didnt show up. still didnt call.
more time passes. ashton wakes up, we look out at the window and point to things like the 'gucks' and the 'tresh' and the 'dasay' (trucks, trees and outside).
betsy appeared, and i begged her to help. she called even though she was busy:
betsy: shes calling you
betsy: she picked up on the first ring
betsy: then when i told her that you needed to be at work at 7 she said "who--" and then cut herself off by saying, "ug fuck ill call him"
what does that mean, ugh? like im some sort of nuisance?
so she did call, and she wasnt the least bit apologetic. sure she said sorry, but almost like someone punched her in the stomach first. apparently her car wasnt starting. why she hadnt called me at 530 or so when she was supposed to be leaving for corvallis, i have no idea. from 530 to 830...what was she doing? why didnt she call? her car wouldnt start and she couldnt call to tell me right away?
i asked her where she was, and she said it was none of my business.
this is what i think happened:
she was trashed. she dropped off rachel at home and went back over to some guys house. sure, she may have been with friends, but more than likely, the point was the guy. she overslept or she was having sex. either way, she didnt want to answer my text messages right away because at that moment she didnt care to.
so she finally comes up with some sort of an excuse, "oh my key wont turn and start my car." even though that problem was fixed weeks ago.

i dont even know why i agreed to help her. it seemed so silly at the time. she was going out with girlfriends to a party. parties mean alcohol and cigarrettes. and guys. and parties also mean sarah not having the ability to drink casually. instead sarah has to get completely inebriated. but yet, i agreed to meet her in coburg to pick up ashton immediately after i left work at 930. i even bought rachel a 6 pack. sarah was very sweet, very loving and still assured me she would be at my house no later than 630 am the following morning. i assumed the only way this was going to be possible for her was if she drank lightly and didnt get horrendously toxicated.

imagine my surprise.

well sarah, thanks. youre not the least bit sorry. youre lying about something. and you caused alot of problems at my work. which you are making a habit of. so thanks. i really appreciate it.