01.12.05 - 5:49 pm

drained.
emotionally. physically.
i want to eat, but i dont want to cook. i want things, but i dont want to spend the money. i want sarah, but i dont want the past. i want girls, but i dont want to put in any effort. i want to sleep, but i dont want to sleep away my free night. i want company, but i dont want to talk. i want to read, but i dont want to get bored. i want to laugh, but i dont want people to know im around.
i want my computer, so i can get to work on my movies. in silence. in happiness. in solitude. away from her. and them. and desire. and want. and hunger. and sleep.
i wonder what my face looks like as i type with so little entusiasm and energy.