04.15.05 - 11:08 pm

the rms titanic sank this morning at 2:30 am, for the ninety third time.

i remember i set my alarm and woke up once many years ago, to mark the anniversary. to perhaps maybe feel something. but, i woke up at 2:30 am pacific standard time. the titanic sank in the atlantic, making me almost five hours too late. so i felt nothing, and went to bed disappointed.

but dont forget that one thousand and five hundred people died in just under two hours time. i often think about my chances. id be too old to be allowed onto a lifeboat. so, would i have jumped into the water after a boat that was just pulling away? or would i have stayed on as long as possible, and hoped to be able to swim out to something? either way, in 32 degree water, my thin frail body wouldnt have lasted long. hyperthermia would have shut me down real quick. even if i were rescued almost immediately after going in.

fifteen hundred vs three hundred...THOUSAND in one single tsunami.

sometimes when comparing the devastation and creating a scale for which was worse, death tolls mean nothing over a certain number.

great loss of human life is great loss of human life.