05.21.05 - 10:18 pm

there is another battle brewing inside me.

come august i have to decide where i want my life to go. do i want to try out the family thing: live with sarah and ashton, go to school and work?

or

do i want to do the same as ive been doing: live with ben and justin until i finish school. and then move in with sarah after i graduate?

i dont know. i know im leaning more towards not living with sarah. i just...dont think its time yet. id like her closer, but just....i feel uncomfortable with her being...that....close. this will need more discussion and thought. i just wish i was really doing my homework tonight instead of distracting myself with foolish things like this.

i am absurd.