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07.30.05 - 5:17 pm its not you i miss. im not sad because i miss your smile, your eyes or waking up next to you. im sad because i miss the idea of you. what you represented. i dont miss the memories. i dont miss the zoo. california. NA meetings. trips to the beach. our anniversary. or even making you happy. i miss the part of me you wore out, exausted and used up when you decided to get pregnant and then eventually leave me. i miss having a reason for the wake of destruction we created and then you left unrepaired. at least when you were here there was a point to all of it: we were trying to make it better. make up for it. make it go away. its not her i miss. you are happy and doing well. i am too. im having fun. i meet girls. i have sex with them. i laugh. i drink. i have a son. i can be a single father and play as a 23 year old male should and does.
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