04.24.06 - 11:09 am

i lose my appetite. i lose motivation. i lose interest in things i want to do. i feel angry alot. i feel disgust. i feel despair.

today i thought about watching a commercial airliner flying directly over my head into the building i just walked out of.

i thought about saying things that would make me come across as even less level headed and mature just so that i felt better, and barely at that.

coping skills are failing.