05.16.06 - 11:52 pm

what were you going to say then, as you stared at me today? what sort of messages were you trying to read from my eyes? were you trying to gauge how uncomfortable i was when i made that double take at the passenger seat of you car?

were you trying to apologize for bringing david with you to drop off ashton?

i wonder what that must have been like for him, to sit in that car, watching two people hand off a child they made together. was he just as excited as you were to not have a child for a night? was he nervous about catching me glancing at him? if the situation presented itself, would he introduce himself to me and say, "nice to meet you"?

i know david noe would say it in return. but i wouldnt.

you did the same thing saturday afternoon. that same gaze of....of what? what are you trying to tell me with those eyes?

its not like i can care either way. im not letting you in, if even for a moment.

even though it would be interesting to know.