08.05.06 - 1:08 pm

first it was starcraft. i failed my first college class ever because of its infectious clutches.

then it was age of empires. five hours would go by and id have no recollection of its passing.

then halo. followed by its successor, halo 2. and then its upgrade: halo 2 on xbox live.

sphinx and i stayed up till 2 am playing last night. today it was another three hours before the need to be responsible became overwhelming. even the desire to eat is suppressed as i continue to play round after round. i fall asleep at night thinking about how to better myself, how to steady my hands, where the shot gun is located on each map, and how to avoid my own deaths in exchange for the deaths of hundreds of other players.

i wish i could say i knew what i enjoyed about it all so much. the strategy? the marksmanship? the pride of most kills or medals?

i need to put the controller down, and pick up some more books. some physics. some history. some psychology. some statistics.

im bankrupt on intellectualism.