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03.28.07 - 8:10 am her: are you meeting me or should i just cancel my appointment? i need to know asap. me: if i drive to meet you today, i wont be driving to meet you again til you get back. her: youre an ass, you know. ill be picking him up i guess. me: not an ass. just dont have the money to waste on driving. her: just lazy i see. me: again, laziness and wanting to save my money for more vital things are completely different.
i dont see the distance as daunting as i do the amount of money ill be pouring into my car in order to make this work. to lincoln city and back is easily $20 in gas for maybe two trips. itll be $10 per trip to mcminville. and if im doing this four times a week, it adds up per month. per year. while moving home and living for free is a wonderful option, and something i would love to be able to do just as she does, if it would put undue financial burden on myself, it wouldnt be worth it. i feel like shes being careless and selfish and inconsiderate by moving so far away. and then surprised when i get upset about it, as if moving so dramatically far away would be an easy and pleasant thing for me to deal with. i have driven this distance for nearly three years. when she lived in newberg. dundee. and eugene. its only been a little under a year that ive been spoiled with a twenty minute drive to monmouth. my options are limited. grin and bear it. or take him for longer periods of time in order to space out the amount of driving. i like that second one. picking him up an hour away on monday through thursday. she wont allow it, but if she has free live in babysitters at her grandparents, i cant imagine they caring if they have to watch him for the weekends. but i know that compromise to sarah thornton requires someone else to sacrifice for her benefit.
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