08.26.07 - 11:45 am

its as painful as any physical affliction. its a dinstinct blow to my self esteem and optimism. to what makes me feel good every day.

she claims shes just doing whats best for her son. but its fascinating that what started as a compromise to benefit everyone, suddenly ends with her as the beneficiary. its rather convenient that the school she chooses for ashton happens to be in the same city as she is. its interesting to note that of all the schools between sherwood and SE portland, she happens to like the one in sherwood the best.

big surprise.

i feel more and more phased out by her. like shes trying to defeat me one step at a time in hopes ill finally give up, relenquish custody and just forget all about all of this.

i am angry, and i do not know where to direct it, nor how to find a solution to this.