09.10.07 - 4:59 pm

seeing a girl again, after so many countless months, has only made me feel more insecure.

i dont know where it comes from or why its even present. but its an irritation i could do with out.

and its not the jealousy type insecurity, its the ashamed of how i look experience. normally i dont care; but suddenly, with a girl i fancy around, i worry about my thinning hair, my poor physique, my lack of financial security and being the guy with a child.

its nice though, ridiculous thoughts aside. i have no idea what im doing. i dont remember how any of this works. her being the assertive one is definetely appreciated.

we'll just see what happens. either way.