12.18.07 - 5:28 pm

as with most people im sure, im much better at articulating my arguments in retrospect. so i dont expect this conversation to end well or with a compromising agreement. infact, i dont see there to be any way to compromise. one person will just have to make a choice and accept it.

my choice will be no different than the other times ive had to defend this journal: it will remain public.

what i will have reason to apologize for: not writing about julie enough. shes a wonderful girl, i suppose i should. not seeing julies mom when she wanted me to, instead of when i was able to.

no this is not a billboard for messages i hope my exgirlfriends read. yes this is a place for me to reflect on my past and individuals who were important to me who also happen to be of the opposite sex. and like pornography, if you dont want to experience it, dont look for it. nothing i say in these pages will i be uncomfortable to tell you in person. so theres no shame in me keeping this medium of expression public.

this will be a circular argument i could really do with out. it would be really great if julie would be content with just being content. some things just dont need to affect you. some things just dont need to be argued over. some things, in the grand scheme of relationships, really are trivial and dont need to be fought over.

even if they are feelings.