12.16.13 - 11:20 am

and then there was that time i got a job offer in california.

wednesday morning i will be flying to southern california with the intent of meeting the president of a company, his employees and expressing my interest in joining his team. ill be shuffled from office to office, shake some hands, make some direct eye contact and describe how effective i would be selling their distributed products. ill wear some ties. some fancy shoes. ill eat out and meet these same people in a less professional setting after business hours.

ill get to sleep in an enormous ocean liner. wake up. repeat.

friday ill drive around and see the surrounding communities of long beach, torrance, compton, inglewood and try to see if i can raise a family there.

id say im not optimistic, but i said the same thing about florida and came back excited.

and then i get the difficult task of deciding what i want more. which position would be the most fulfilling. which would pay enough to sustain a lifestyle i am comfortable with. which location is more accommodating for my girlfriend and son. and finally how to absorb the guilt of causing one company, or maybe both, to put a financial investment in me that will go so unrequited.

its just the cost of doing business, they say. however for me, theres still a feeling of embarrassment and shame involved in this transaction.

now, lets polish off that counter offer letter.