07.18.02 - 4:05 pm

eleven guys. potentially hundreds of encounters. one time. for one other guy. but every time with me.

11 to 3 am i winning or losing?

eleven seems like so much. excessive. the now is important. then not so important. her hugs are long. touching creates an amnesia of anything other than her and me and her touching me.

this is 6 days before ingesting an illegal substance.

it took 4 years to feel this good again.