10.16.03 - 11:11 pm

she says other people cant tell me what they think i should do because they dont have a child, theyre not as young as she is, and they just dont know about what goes on between us, and they dont know how hard it is, and they dont know anything......

maybe it is hard. maybe it is draining. maybe i am emotionally sapped of my desire to continue a relationship with sarah merely based on the exaustive efforts it takes to have an unwanted child. maybe im so fed up and easily angered and aggressive and rude and i dont talk about issues we need to and we fight and we argue because we have a baby.

regardless of all that she says, im still supposed to feel like i want to be with her.

instead of wishing i had nothing to do with her.