12.29.03 - 6:38 pm

do you understand now why i dont want to talk to you? or have you around? you lie when you say you dont mean any of this. you meant every piece of it.

sarah: i think i see more of and know of whats going to happen �

sarah: and your just guessing �

sarah: hopeing �

sarah: but it wont work �

sarah: im sorry, but its not going to. �

sarah: you know this, i know you do. �

sarah: you told me that by calling youb ack tonight isnt changing, �

sarah: but jordan �

sarah: what was i calling you for? �

sarah: i want you to listen. �

sarah: and act like you are. �

sarah: and like you care like you say you do. �

sarah: i want you to make sense. �

sarah: i want to show you that me being around isnt as aweful as you continually think it is. �

sarah: i cant show you that �

sarah: if you dont let me �

sarah: and confuse me �

sarah: and hurt me more and more. �

sarah: as for wednesday night. �

sarah: my sister will be around. �

sarah: and so will i. �

sarah: i will bring a friend, a good friend �

sarah: and not cause you any harm. �

sarah: i want to be near you, to be close to you, �

sarah: for you to have some respect for me as a person and as your friend �

sarah: if you want this to go as you want �

sarah: you need to see me �

sarah: and see what i do �

sarah: ill make out with someone right in front of you if you want, to show you that i dont care. �

sarah: and you can do the same. �

sarah: its ok �

sarah: now, its ok. �

sarah: because its alloud. �

sarah: you know �

sarah: i know �

sarah: everyone knows �

sarah: that it is you �

sarah: and you alone �

sarah: who decided for everything to happen. �

sarah: people being misinformed is giving you the wrong idea. �

sarah: you... and your bullshit preaching. �

sarah: talking �

sarah: whtaever you want to call it �

sarah: but you know �

sarah: and.. �

sarah: im drunk. �

sarah: im sorry you want me to be with terry again. �

sarah: i wish i could. �

sarah: i would rather be with him, than you. �

sarah: but he's not single. �

sarah: he's in a long relationship �

sarah: i love him �

sarah: probably more than i'll ever love you �

sarah: but... �

sarah: i cant have him �

sarah: so i need you instead �

sarah: as my crutch. �

sarah: as my helper �

sarah: and you knowing that should make you more comfortible. �

sarah: so.. �

sarah: when you find out �

sarah: that i was with someone else �

sarah: remind yourself �

sarah: that it was you./] �

sarah: giving me away �

sarah: bewcause i wouldnt prefer anyone else over you. �

sarah: but..i feel i need the comfort. �

sarah: i need to feel needed by someone �

sarah: im sorry you couldnt �

sarah: but this is how i get over boyfriends. �

sarah: its always been the easiest for me �

sarah: sex. �

sarah: because it helps forget ow you felt. �

sarah: im sorry.. �

sarah: i wont tell you if you think it'll hurt you more. �

sarah: i hate i have to do it this way.. �

sarah: but it makes it easier on me �

sarah: it really does. �

sarah: besides, im on birth control for a reason, right?

sarah: right! �

sarah: haha.. �

sarah: im really sorry �

sarah: but you know me. �

sarah: i love the booty!!!!!!! �

sarah: :-) �

sarah: oh, abby told me that she said you think im coming over? �

sarah: im not stupid �

sarah: i was heading out the door to go pick up a bag..and i jokingly said i was coming to your house �

sarah: so i guess she told you? �

sarah: well.. �

sarah: whatever. �

sarah: but... �

sarah: i have unfineshed business with my pipe. �

sarah: haha �

sarah: remember whren we smoked in your car? �

BlakStar13: at your dads landscape place? �

sarah: good times.. �

sarah: well, ill talk to you later, friend. �

sarah: FRIEND!!!!! �

sarah: helloooo? �

sarah: you said you'd talk to me on here. �

sarah: hello hello hello? �

sarah: jordaaaan �

sarah: i want you to talk. �

sarah: talk about ashton. �

sarah: talk about how happy you are. �

sarah: talk about howwwww immm ovverrr youuu �

sarah: because terry argues with his girlfriend over me �

sarah: why am i telling you this? �

sarah: arhafjklfjdsfjklfjd �

sarah: im on a roll. �

sarah: a...cinnamon roll. �

sarah: oh my god �

sarah: i was going to talk to you about this earlier.. �

sarah: but do you ever get premonitions? �

sarah: because, �

sarah: i dont know...but lately, weird things have been happening a lot. �

sarah: really? �

sarah: cool. �

sarah: oh, �

sarah: well..i appreciate the offer, but im taken. �

sarah: by who?! �

sarah: how could you ask such a question???? �

sarah: what do youy think im crazy �

sarah: well, i am... �

sarah: for you �

sarah: but �

sarah: thats besides the point. �

sarah: because. �

sarah: jkldsajklfdsajklfds �

sarah: im taken, i guess �

sarah: byye jordan noe!!!!!!! �

sarah: i love thee greatly but i have no intention to remain sexless forever!!! �

sarah: everyone who's anyone who's not pregnant has sex on newyears!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOO �

sarah: AAAHHH �

sarah: i have to tell you something!!!!!! �

sarah: whered you go?!?!! �

sarah: friend? �

sarah: are you there ? �

sarah: ok ok ok im back! �

sarah: ashton says he hates you. �

sarah: i asked him what he wanted for newyears, and he said.. for mommy and daddy to be together, and i told him you didnt want to .. �

sarah: so he says... �

sarah: i hate daddy �

sarah: ok �

sarah: im gettibng fed up �

sarah: what would you do if i used your video camera? �

sarah: to... �

sarah: tape me having sex with someone else? and gave it to you as a present? �

sarah: ok, im going overboard with the sex thing. �

sarah: but still. �