01.21.04 - 3:03 pm

ok look, i feel sick. it turns my stomach to read and to discover what i can already sense just by looking around. i feel so incredibly inhuman everytime the thoughts burn through my trivial desires of fish tanks, being late to class or maintaining friendships and replace them with something so much darker. this is right. this is what needs to happen. theres no getting around it.

i believe there needs to be a strictly enforced global ban on childbirth for several years. i believe abortions should be legalized and encouraged. i believe in a world wide sterilization of millions of people.

i believe in global genocide.

i would be hailed a madman, a psychotic demon. the product of a careless and hedonistic society. i would be lined up next to adolf hitler, osama bin laden, russian dictators, saddam hussein, and other genocidal leaders of history. i wouldnt be listed with them because i hate other races or religions. nor would i be with them because i want more control of land and resources. i would be with them because i would think, above anything else, what i was doing was right.

i feel disgusting.

but i would. i really would.