05.04.06 - 1:40 am

im still sorry that im not part of your life in that way anymore. that its not me up there on that roof with you on these evenings without a child.
i still think about this. alot.

contacts are great. theyre wonderful.
i know a bartender because we both like fish. and through him i get cheap to free drinks. i like this guy. and of course by some random set of relationships and connections he would happen to be dating a girl that i fancy.

then theres that other guy. first just a customer? then a neighbor? then i was the customer. and now, probably getting me a job where i want to work.

contacts. these people that i meet through random instances and events and then have them help me get where i want to go just because they like me enough to do so. insane. networking. connections. him to her to him to him to him to that place to them to him to you. what? how does that even work?

this whole thing is just one tiny place. a tiny place with little dots.

all i have to do is connect them.