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01.14.10 - 11:12 am when i find over a hundred dollars in my bank account, immediately my mind races through my bills and debts. i toil briskly with panic. who havent i paid. what bill is lingering underneath a stack of papers somewhere. i pull out my yellow pad of paper. on one side i write down all the income ill be receiving for the rest of the month. unemployment. on the other side i write out all the payments i have to make. rent. i subtract the totals of each. this is the number i have to keep a close eye on. gas. food. recreation. often times, ill forgo eating while im out running errands to maintain this number. theres a job out there. a job that pays $3000 a month. ill take more, but id rather not settle for less. ive been too lazy about this job hunting process. im sure there is a creative way out there i can inject myself into some sort of career. but first, i need a motivation injection.
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