12.30.03 - dont forget this ok?
12.29.03 - i need to be alone.
12.29.03 - still falling.
12.29.03 - if she does, ill fall....but ill get back up.
12.26.03 - i have no respect for you, she said.
12.23.03 - holy fucking shit.
12.16.03 - yeah. you heard me.
12.14.03 - saddam fucking hussein.
12.13.03 - dont forget this.
12.13.03 - im going to take a nap now.
12.12.03 - shes never gonna come back down.
12.07.03 - some things dont feel right.
12.05.03 - what ive been thinking about.
12.01.03 - its ok to miss you. its ok for you to miss me.
11.29.03 - gilbert godfreys - what the fuck moment of 2003
11.28.03 - tonight.
11.27.03 - shes 18. and proves it.
11.25.03 - will you meet me in heaven someday?
11.17.03 - kind of a birthday
11.17.03 - three more days.
11.17.03 - makes me sorry that it had to end this way.
11.15.03 - get away from me. just get away from me.
11.09.03 - take that. im retaliating.
11.03.03 - pumping knees of rage.
10.27.03 - once.
10.27.03 - goodnight.
10.23.03 - i cant move to massachusettes
10.21.03 - just something fun.
10.20.03 - http://www.mapquest.com/directions/main.adp?go=1&do=nw&ct=NA&1y=US&1a=&1c=corvallis&1s=or&1z=&1ah=&2y=US&2a=&2c=Worcester&2s=ma&2z=&2ah=
10.19.03 - clocks.
10.17.03 - im so mad right now, and i should have gotten icecream with my father.
10.16.03 - it gets harder and harder.
10.16.03 - every mess i make, i make a run for nowhere. nowhere follows you.
10.14.03 - this wont ever reflect off her eyes.
10.13.03 - hungry and tired of sitting.
10.05.03 - tonight
10.02.03 - just something quick before i leave.
10.02.03 - The Beast
09.26.03 - i hate this simpsons episode.
09.23.03 - just a few more hours until tomorrow
09.23.03 - raising a flag is the same as raising your voice.
09.20.03 - im scared. but, i think i need this.
09.17.03 - irrigational emotions.
09.16.03 - loneliness and fathers.
09.14.03 - the end. finally.
09.12.03 - what happened.
09.10.03 - angry and tired and metal asspoles.
09.10.03 - someone sit with me and understand what actually hurts.
09.08.03 - chads letter......idiot
09.07.03 - broken.
09.06.03 - sarah, you just dont know it yet. but its going to hurt.
09.06.03 - what?
09.04.03 - um....shes going to be so mad.
09.04.03 - should i still drive up there....?
08.30.03 - fine. be happy. but dont take me with you.
08.26.03 - -
08.26.03 - fiddles.
08.25.03 - maximum lack of control
08.22.03 - hope you both like...sulfur....
08.06.03 - still? yes still. did you really think i could just change my mind?
08.06.03 - still? yes still. did you really think i could just change my mind?
08.02.03 - birds. and long nipples. but it looks like it flies.
08.01.03 - a moth that tries to enter the bright eye.
07.31.03 - fuck you for doing this to me.
07.29.03 - messsssst
07.25.03 - regards.
07.22.03 - ashton david paul noe. day five.
07.20.03 - clocks. 2.
07.18.03 - bob and......
07.14.03 - i wish i could do what i wanted.
07.14.03 - date of birth: july 14th, 2003
07.09.03 - the ultrasound.
07.07.03 - please say, youll be waiting....
07.06.03 - you son of a bitch.
07.04.03 - a guess.
07.03.03 - ill trade you my life, for your depression.
07.02.03 - a new house. a new member. a new direction. the cabin begins.
07.02.03 - im no bobby, but...well...fuck you.
06.30.03 - fuck it. im going home.
06.26.03 - just a bunch of quick notes.
06.24.03 - close call. first false alarm.
06.23.03 - love sarah.
06.22.03 - movement. feel.
06.15.03 - sarah used to be my michelle.
06.13.03 - bunches of hate.
06.12.03 - fuck you leaders of the world. fuck you right in the face.
06.12.03 - judith.
06.09.03 - fuck the what?
06.08.03 - clothes. coming off.
06.07.03 - the oak of poison renders me limbless once more.
06.07.03 - it just is.
06.06.03 - my life. as a chocolate giraffe.
06.04.03 - avril sounds so...childlike.
06.03.03 - bald hill: part two
06.01.03 - bald hill: part one
05.31.03 - justin and me. and a hike.
05.30.03 - an explanation so that no one thinks im always thinking this.
05.29.03 - hypocracy deluxe.
05.29.03 - i would probably break up with her if she was here.
5.25.03 - ill take you back to the start.
05.24.03 - i wiped with a toilet seat cover.
05.24.03 - please. i think i want out.
05.23.03 - just to do it.
05.22.03 - green tape armed hurt.
05.21.03 - i miss sarah.
05.18.03 - father says, me and the wife.
05.15.03 - cash.
05.15.03 - mid term exam vs arizona.
05.14.03 - it hurts more and more.
05.14.03 - halloween.
05.13.03 - ups....et.
05.08.03 - halcyon.
05.08.03 - in case no one knew yet.
05.06.03 - karma.
05.05.03 - more details to come.
05.03.03 - sister props.
05.01.03 - underwater breathing.
04.25.03 - im angry.
04.23.03 - well......shit. really.
04.23.03 - i think theyre gone.....for reinforcements.
04.22.03 - my sister....such a woman!
04.22.03 - shareeeeessssssa
04.22.03 - i got written up because of a barbarian.
04.21.03 - your hair smells really great.
04.17.03 - keeping me posted.
04.11.03 - i mean, madeline. of course.
04.09.03 - there is no hope in hopelessness.
04.08.03 - mediocre. at best. always.
04.07.03 - she said she would. but....
04.04.03 - feds and fish.
04.03.03 - just listen to me, please.
04.01.03 - a rant of anger, love, regret and hopelessness.
03.31.03 - dont worry.
03.29.03 - just today it seemed like.....
03.29.03 - all of those. in that order. all at once.
03.28.03 - stache part 2
03.28.03 - fleas of disdain.
03.27.03 - stache part 1
03.24.03 - gauge. willem. they both wanted johnny.
03.22.03 - i dont know why.
03.21.03 - just something else.
03.21.03 - dear jordan, eat me. love, saddam.
03.18.03 - real fucking cute saddam.
03.17.03 - well, THIS ought to kill them....
03.17.03 - i laugh.
03.17.03 - stay away from jazz and liquor.
03.16.03 - something that came out...like...that.
03.14.03 - all fall down.
03.13.03 - im failing. and its not good.
03.12.03 - throwing up.
03.11.03 - wtevr
03.10.03 - it takes just a litttle longer.
03.09.03 - just like the story says.
03.09.03 - yes. a nincompoop.
03.06.03 - she called me a pussy.
03.03.03 - mom is going to be rather upset.
03.02.03 - the stache...the beard... the gift.
02.27.03 - deepness of david noe.
02.26.03 - justina. beans. and a head.
02.25.03 - clouds of dragonflies and water vapor.
02.25.03 - thats all i feel like saying.
02.24.03 - moms a scared.
02.23.03 - un. faithful.
02.23.03 - an interesting morning of nudeness.
02.20.03 - 15 minutes of typing steadily leads to convuluted convulsions catagorizing catamarans crumbling cruelly ceilinged crimson covers crowned carefully conspicdskjhfgkdfjhg
02.19.03 - depression....in the mud.
02.19.03 - he says this when hes.....sleeping?
02.19.03 - bastard.
02.17.03 - i dont know. but its possible.
02.17.03 - become.
02.17.03 - personality tests.
02.15.03 - hallmark cards abound.
02.13.03 - my father, the valentine.
02.12.03 - cursed and plagued.
02.11.03 - what i did tonight.
02.10.03 - supposively.
02.10.03 - odd little email and the things that followed.
02.09.03 - toiletries.
02.08.03 - but he said it didnt come like this.
02.05.03 - eighteen years from 75 days ago.
02.04.03 - febuary 2nd, 2003
02.04.03 - this is it. this is how its going to be.
01.30.03 - his name....was robert palmer.
01.26.03 - badlib
01.26.03 - balloohldfjkhsdfk
01.25.03 - touche robert.
01.25.03 - the plague. the pestilence. the doom.
01.23.03 - translated messages.
01.23.03 - vaccuums lot.
01.21.03 - communist skaters and fascist punks.
01.21.03 - laughs.
01.19.03 - stop.
01.17.03 - quick rapid waves washed over with a thick hum.
01.17.03 - I love sarah
01.16.03 - woke up this morning, and really didnt have much to say.
01.15.03 - quick dream.
01.13.03 - meh. its a filler. i know.
01.09.03 - just a dream or two.
01.08.03 - its hot on hot under the heat.
01.07.03 - its peanut butter jelly time. peanut butter and a baseball bat.
01.02.03 - i guess i like being awake when i should be asleep.