12.17.05 - happy b irthday. i miss you.
12.10.05 - literally terrified.
12.08.05 - you continually piss me off.
12.04.05 - ben, you weiner.
12.01.05 - im gonna buy me a gun as long as my arm.
11.30.05 - eat me then.
11.28.05 - random arizona memory.
11.21.05 - i hate terrorists.
11.16.05 - some crazy dreams last night.
11.11.05 - this sounds gay.
11.09.05 - joseph conrad.
11.09.05 - im a dirty thief.
11.07.05 - some brief memories of college.
11.07.05 - god i sound like rachel.
11.07.05 - pre bedtime thought.
11.06.05 - two completely related thoughts.
11.04.05 - the beard. again.
11.04.05 - and then our day begins.
11.04.05 - a collection of video memories.
11.03.05 - halloween.
10.31.05 - diarrhea. defecation. 24 hour relief.
10.30.05 - some weird things have happened in my life.
10.28.05 - sigh.
10.27.05 - justin, our fallen companion.
10.27.05 - justin, our fallen companion.
10.26.05 - summer of 2006
10.26.05 - much to learn.
10.25.05 - i love you, boy.
10.24.05 - see you soon little boy.
10.21.05 - singapore and drugs. and drunk.
10.21.05 - the meatmedley.
10.21.05 - hurry.
10.20.05 - never come back.
10.20.05 - a terrible dream and thailand.
10.19.05 - part two to the previous entry.
10.19.05 - blah blah blah. bitch and moan.
10.15.05 - stop it already. you really are a fool.
10.14.05 - sarah.
10.13.05 - who am i?
10.12.05 - arrogance.
10.12.05 - idiot.
10.11.05 - myspace and fine young cannibals.
10.10.05 - its double sided!
10.09.05 - world of end.
10.09.05 - julia. yes.
10.07.05 - i miss you elizabeth.
10.04.05 - a textual thought.
10.04.05 - why are you?
10.03.05 - intellectual gratification.
10.02.05 - i dont have much to say though.
09.30.05 - what i buy once a month
09.30.05 - way too goddamn early.
09.29.05 - who would have thought?
09.24.05 - dont worry, youre on foot patrols.
09.21.05 - thank you johnny.
09.21.05 - this apartment is starving for an argument.
09.19.05 - the only person she talks to is her boyfriend.
09.17.05 - what a joke.
09.17.05 - what a joke.
09.13.05 - EASTWARD!
09.11.05 - she.
09.09.05 - the death of cody.
09.08.05 - oh i think they like me.
09.04.05 - jared.
09.04.05 - welcome this is our farm house.
09.03.05 - this is ridiculous.
09.02.05 - im sorry louisiana. i wish i could help. i donated 6.58 for you today.
09.01.05 - a lost necessity.
09.01.05 - a lost necessity.
08.31.05 - elizabeth, i went to a bar tonight.
08.30.05 - seriously, im almost done whining.
08.29.05 - someone better.
08.24.05 - you already know how this will end.
08.23.05 - some bullshit.
08.23.05 - i need some stars.
08.21.05 - when im out with friends and people im too busy to write. when im alone, i have all the time i need.
08.21.05 - just before my nap on the floor, this is what i thought of.
08.21.05 - theme songs.
08.17.05 - god this is beautiful.
08.15.05 - ugh! your ugly houses!
08.15.05 - he makes me smile.
08.14.05 - ...or just not wake up.
08.13.05 - im just like them, only different.
08.11.05 - a short apology to ben hemson for complaining about sex.
08.11.05 - what ive been listening to. alot.
08.10.05 - got off work 5 hours early.
08.07.05 - knocked the wind out of me.
08.07.05 - a lonely night.
08.04.05 - ill tell you again, get the fuck out.
08.04.05 - dont do it again.
08.03.05 - almost there....
08.02.05 - THE CROWS NEST
07.30.05 - more and more.
07.30.05 - today at work.
07.28.05 - a thought on a deck.
07.27.05 - i dont have a title for this.
07.27.05 - chest pain.
07.26.05 - last time there was anything was....july of 2001.
07.21.05 - a black molly.
07.17.05 - my son turns two.
07.17.05 - emotional slave.
07.17.05 - it may be a blast for you. but its torture for me.
07.16.05 - lost.
07.15.05 - a night of jiggles!
07.13.05 - have a machete.
07.13.05 - fuck you hutsu. fuck you tusti. ill fucking kill you as look at you.
07.12.05 - i hate you for putting me here.
07.11.05 - what success and progress feel like.
07.10.05 - ridiculous.
07.10.05 - a boy. a morning. some mcdonalds.
07.10.05 - you ask me...
07.07.05 - i dont think i can get tired of screaming at your face when youre not even around.
07.04.05 - i lost my turtle.
07.03.05 - lets drink.
07.02.05 - a recapture of bullshit.
07.02.05 - how i hate her so.
06.30.05 - two more notches.
06.27.05 - im not drinking and driving, im sipping and cruising.
06.25.05 - no tv.
06.24.05 - always angry.
06.23.05 - extended foreplay.
06.22.05 - finally sent this in at 12:00 am
06.22.05 - she bailed on tonight so she can make bail tomorrow.
06.22.05 - just a drive back.
06.21.05 - or rachel simon.
06.20.05 - goddamn you. both of you.
06.20.05 - just late night whining.
06.20.05 - end it.
06.18.05 - RAISE THE BLADES!
06.18.05 - grind and make out. thats what FX is for. fuck you saturday night.
06.15.05 - next up. summer camp.
06.14.05 - no.
06.14.05 - thank you.
06.14.05 - what a fucking bitch.
06.12.05 - sarah the whore.
06.09.05 - i dont care, its still going to be miserable.
06.09.05 - clearly far greater.
06.08.05 - shut up you sissy fuck.
06.08.05 - some notes on how i feel.
06.07.05 - just a few hours without a girlfriend. many more to go.
06.07.05 - shit.
06.02.05 - charlie and the chocolate factory.
06.02.05 - choose what you want, but theres so little choice.
06.01.05 - its not working.
05.31.05 - lies. thick lies.
05.30.05 - the silent walk after.
05.29.05 - problematic thoughts of today.
05.29.05 - id be lying if i said none of this was true.
05.25.05 - goddamnit reef tank.
05.25.05 - the real reason is fish, who am i kidding.
05.24.05 - julia.
05.24.05 - bitching, but almost in a nice way.
05.21.05 - finish your fucking essay prick.
05.21.05 - yes, for reals.
05.18.05 - poems. round two.
05.18.05 - some poems.
05.18.05 - mt st helens.
05.11.05 - a rant about caring.
05.09.05 - just one afternoon.
05.07.05 - reefs.
05.04.05 - perfect.
05.04.05 - id like to tell you everything. but i can only say so much.
05.03.05 - trust. thats probably it.
04.29.05 - i love that kid.
04.29.05 - latent learning.
04.23.05 - you tell me.
04.22.05 - holy shit.
04.21.05 - procrastination, for one evening, please just leave me alone.
04.20.05 - yes, i am talking about you. you and those damn glasses, and that boy.
04.20.05 - iraq.
04.19.05 - marijuana....its not addictive though.
04.18.05 - stay in chicago and stay persistant.
04.18.05 - the scourge of hemson.
04.15.05 - titanic. again.
04.15.05 - gloating about a son.
04.12.05 - scatman john brought this upon thee.
04.06.05 - anemone part 2
04.06.05 - anemone part 1
04.04.05 - one by one till there are none.
04.01.05 - im starving.
03.30.05 - didnt want to forget this for some reason.
03.30.05 - white america that is.
03.30.05 - start over or go away.
03.26.05 - some long stuff. some short stuff. and just a poser.
03.24.05 - NUTMEG
03.18.05 - now.
03.16.05 - child onset schizophrenia.
03.15.05 - finally, you spoke up.
03.08.05 - shes not changing.
03.08.05 - a tsunami story.
03.08.05 - you fucking liar.
03.03.05 - no, this is your shift and thats jordans shift and thats all i have to say.
03.01.05 - sort of a not to the general public, but maybe a little more for my own parents.
02.10.05 - i still shake.
02.07.05 - http://reefcentral.com/forums/showthread.php?s=&threadid=523683
02.07.05 - they ordered me to make mistakes.
02.07.05 - ugh, just..uh...bleh. a quick thing to write.
02.06.05 - a conversation with myself.
02.05.05 - wash this.
02.05.05 - just enough....
02.04.05 - briefly.
02.04.05 - im her. i call repeatedly. i dont leave her alone. now i know how she felt. now i wish i could fix this.
02.04.05 - i dont feel like going to class today.
02.03.05 - its a bus, he said.
02.03.05 - i can go back to sleep.
02.03.05 - tonight she ended it.
02.02.05 - a foot with a child.
02.02.05 - what does the price of love have to do love?
02.02.05 - it suddenly became clear.
01.31.05 - fuck, it would just be so nice to spend the night text messaging her and calling her.....
01.30.05 - absolutely not.
01.30.05 - all day long just barely able to keep my stomach from emptying its contents...and not because of alcohol.
01.30.05 - i may seem ok because of what i do and how i act, but i am not
01.28.05 - iraq, a country we fucked up and who continues to fuck itself up.
01.28.05 - thats fucking gross sarah.
01.28.05 - sad. pathetic. tomorrow, when i ask her, did you fuck him? shell say, thats none of your business.
01.27.05 - junk.
01.26.05 - wow, i guess i can hate.
01.25.05 - yeah, i had to. i didnt want to...well, maybe.
01.20.05 - you fuck.
01.20.05 - ...yesterday
01.20.05 - yesterday
01.19.05 - jordan noes series of unfortunate events.
01.18.05 - sex with him.
01.17.05 - he cant prevent the inevitable
01.17.05 - and she didnt resist. yeah, youre still the loser.
01.17.05 - ok.
01.16.05 - people who are reading this are going, what the fuck is this incoherant rambling?
01.16.05 - overdramatic explanation of how i really feel.
01.15.05 - black hawk down.
01.12.05 - i just didnt want to look at that last entry anymore.
01.11.05 - dont forget this. asshole.
01.11.05 - nothing short of devastating blows to a poorly healed heart.
01.10.05 - everyday.
01.06.05 - disappointed with the reasoning abilities of mankind.
01.02.05 - she reminded me how to feel sad again.
01.01.05 - i took it off, just to pick it back up and put it back on.
01.01.05 - pretended. all night long.